OMFG I finished my book.
“Finish” is a strong word, of course. I still need to have it edited, picked up by an agent, publisher, edited by them, etc. etc.
But! The biggest, hardest, baddest part is done. And:
I WROTE A NOVEL Y’ALL.
It clocks in at 296 pages, 113,496 words. WOO doggies! Now THAT is a BOOK!
I did a mad push the past two weeks. My life-coach-friend “Portland” kind of called me out on sniveling my way through my third year of writing this thing. I *was* working on editing the beta draft. The pieces to the dress were cut out, it just hadn’t been sewn together yet.
Of course, he wanted me to finish in a night. There IS a solid balance between creativity, burnout, and leaping over roadblocks (self-imposed or otherwise.)
Why bother with this book?
I heard something in this time that smashed through one of my “blocks.”
“I procrastinate because I think, ‘why bother? it’ll never be good enough. it will never reach my standards of perfection. who’s going to care, anyway?'”
Ooo ee. Was I there for that!
It was nice to learn that I’m not the only writer that feels this way.
I wasn’t finishing my book, and I knew it wasn’t because I was lazy, didn’t like my story, had ‘writer’s block,’ etc. etc. There was SOMETHING else going on. It felt like a squishy foam pad over a trap door, but I couldn’t identify it.
Still didn’t really tip it off.
But then a friend, sharing on why he procrastinated at work, said the above.
Zing! Beautiful. Totally Tetris’d into place for me.
Just sit down and write
For me, I’ve always known the very ‘easy’ answer: “Just sit down and write.” But crawling past my mental harpies to do it has, at times, been incredibly difficult. Especially when the task seems Sisyphean. Like … writing a book. You have no idea how many more pages ‘to go.’ So you just keep going.